I hate to have to do it, but I have to change my life. As you know, the entire cancer thing killed my thyroid. Well, Hashimoto’s Disease killed my thyroid, cancer was a bonus. Anyway – I have been having monthly bloodwork since the thyroid radiation in June and am not “normal” yet. My legs are still swollen logs of rotten wood and my toes are so misshapen that they look like stubs, so I have to take matters into my own hands.
I am going to keep myself accountable by telling all of you (whomever you are?) all about my daily fight to lose weight, get healthy and kill cancer. I have this big issue with food. I don’t eat breakfast, I don’t eat lunch – I only eat supper. I went to the nutritionist and she said my metabolism is ZILCH because I don’t eat and fuel my body throughout the day.
Sometimes it is HARD to make myself eat breakfast. I have to take my medication and drink an entire glass of water and then wait an hour to eat. By the time I wait the hour, I am at work and once I get to work – wooooooooooooooooooooooosh my day is on.
So, why don’t I just wake up earlier in the day? Dingle berry – I just told you my body is not right yet. I don’t sleep. I go to bed about one every morning and wake up about three and come to the livingroom. About six, I go back into my bedroom and then I get up shortly thereafter. I have tried everything to get some good sleep. Nothing works.
I am hoping that when I get my bloodwork done this next week, she can increase my medication again so that I can get closer to normal. I don’t know what my numbers are, but they were out of this world during my last visit.
So – what do I do to get my life into healthy living and start controlling this weight of mine? Well, let me just say Rome wasn’t built in a day and it is going to take me a while. So, I figure if I do a graduated step type thing I will have better results.
SO MY GOAL FOR THIS COMING WEEK IS: to eat three meals per day.
And I won’t be eating junk either, I will do my best to eat healthy meals. At least it is a step and I can begin working toward my eventual goal of weighing less. Do you realize that since I met my husband in December 2000 that I have gained one hundred fifty pounds. That is an entire adult person!
It is not all my fault though. My endocrinologist said that I have had so many hormonal problems and for so long that this is my result. She said it would be VERY HARD to get the weight off without weight-loss surgery. I do not want to ever in my life have surgery again, so I guess I am gong to have to lose weight slowly and methodically.
I am not secure enough to tell you my total weight. Maybe at some point I will. All I know is that eight years ago I was in the best shape of my life. I played softball four times a week, I did water aerobics three days a week and I felt empowered. Now, I can barely keep my energy to work all day and then come home to aid my children. My hair is thin and brittle and I am losing it.
My son brought me some random strand today and told me he found my hair. I found my hair on top of my lunch today. How does hair fall out during the process of eating? I can tell that my energy is slowly returning, but I am an impatient person and I want it back now. So, since I can’t have my way – I will have to put a game plan into action and take control in another way.
I purchased an awesome treadmill. It isn’t delivered yet, but once it is I can begin a walking program. I can’t walk outside right now, because it is still too hot and I turn beet red and almost die of heat exhaustion.
So – you know my plan. I expect to do great things.
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